This comming up weekend is going to be CRAZY!!!!! Because my friend's birthday party which is a sleep over from friday through saturday and then on sunday, my family decided it would be fun to close the summer by going to six flags and to invite one friend. Oh yes, I have a person in mind, but I still need to ask him ;-D        

And on another happy note, a friend asked me to work for their wednesday and they'll work my thursday this week, which means, i wont be bound by work this weekend :D SO THAT IS AWESOME!!!! and it works out for the both of us, she is going to a coldplay concert and i wanna be in chicago beforehand for the sleepover :D So, it's all turning out wicked awesome!!! But we'll see how it turns out.          

Lateley I have been happier than usual and I am hoping for a change for the better that I am trying to get the courage to attempt and ask this person out. He's so cool and for a long time I have liked him. I may have denied it a few times because I was put on the spot by my friend Anna (Thanks Anna -.-) But I hope it works out, and i hope he accepts my invite to Six Flags with my family- Honestly I dont care if they find out about me, all I really want is someone to be with, that I can get close to because my  family isn't the most supportive when it comes to affection needs.

   It's been a little over a week since I've last posted, a bunch of fun things have happened with the ever so hated equallibrium of the bad...

   The past week, I got to meet with my friends in Chicago and we went to the Pier and had our fun there. Playing in the fountin that is infront of it and then going to the lake just to get wet again with a side of sand.After another visit to the fountin infront of the Pier, we walked to the Water Tower mall and went to a japenese store and then headed to the food court and got ourselves something to eat. We talked while we ate and most of us were very ccold  because of our wet clothes and the air-conditioning, I must admit that I was freezin' cold!

    After we finished our food, we hurried down the escalators to reach the warmth of the sunlight, outside. It was there that we had to part into two groups, both going off into their directions to find their ways home. I went with four of my friends to their destination cause i wanted to hang out with them for as long as possible. When we arrived to our stop, we were very happy to get off because the ride had been a little shakie and a little stuffy. We all walked to Kailey's house and that's where we hung out till we all had to leave... ~~~One of the best days of the summer~~~ :'-)

   My brother being his stupid, abyssal self ruining people's lives all around him was overwhelming his girlfriend and she, honest to god, tried to kill herself but jumped out of the way of the train just in time and bumped her head in the process. My mom was on the phone with her, when she was contemplating her death and heard the trains horn in the backround and then the line was cut, it broke my mom for a while until she got a call from the girl who attempted suicide. She was telling my mom how she couldn't go through with it despite the fact that she has nothing and how my brother was being horrible and just taking all that she had to give... It's things like this that make me wish he did not exist because all he does is ruin people's lives.- Hearing of the woman's suicide before we heard that she was still alive,  did not feel a tingle of remorse. Noticing this, makes me feel how I must be broken inside because I took the news of her death as if you were to take the weather broadcast... I needa be fixed...

   I finally got to read the sixth Harry Potter book! THANK YOU KAILEY FOR LETTING ME BORROW IT!!!!! It was simply amazing! I love it, and I think this one will definatley be a good sight in theaters. The death was shocking and the hook-up from the beginning became very expected. BUT.... O...M...G..... WHAT A SHOCKER THE DEATH WAS!!!! I was brought to tears a few times because it was so unexpected and HORRIBLE! :'-(

AHHHH!!!! Dont attack me Ryan, this is a few hrs late of Sunday XD but i wrote <.<

Well! A lot has happened since i last posted onto my xanga, I GOT MY FIRST CHECK!!!! It was amazing fun! then i got 3 more <.< LOL yeah... been a while.... u can tell, eh? :P

Big arguement within one of my friend circles and broke it up into 2 sides but now we're more or less neutral now, there is a few that remain angered by all the crappieness that happened. But I'm okay with things now :D

Got in a huge arguement with my step mom a month ago, havent talked to that woman for more than 2-5 words since then, god... I need outta this hell hole for real!!! I hate that woman's gutts to the max and OVER!!! I tried saying "oh i'm sorry for the angry'ness that was felt that day and so on and so forth, blah blah blah." And she was a bitch and just was like "Yeah whatever, i'm used to it" Then today, i used the phone for a while and i am done with it and then she presses the button to "page" it and when i bring it up, the bitch is like "Oh... I knew i would find the person who took it. (incert super bitchy mean voice here) Put it back when ur done" I mean really!!! Was that fuckin' Neccessary?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! URGH!!! that woman gets on my last nerve! I wanna get out as much as possible, i cant stand being in the house when she is. So if ur up to something, give me a buzz, u all know my number <.< if i know u in person

Friends introduced me to a guy, named Chris. He is pretty awesome! Talked to him for 2hrs on the phone and then chatted with him for another 2 hrs after that, and it was cool! We hope to get together this comming up weekend so i can meet him and ask him out if he has that attractive personallity in person that he has on the phone and online, but i'll see ^.- He's already making sexual comments and stuffs and the funny thing is, I've done more than him and he hasn't even made out with a guy yet! and i wasnt even being all that sexual...till later in the convo ^.- LOL yeah i know, i'm weird :P but it's fun to flirt like that.- He wanted to cyber but i had to explain to him that i like to do the real thing rather than make up fantasies. Let's see how that turns out later LOL

FINALLY! I POSTED!!! and i will try to more often^^-Kevkev

YAY! Two days in the Library job! It was pretty boring the first day... and i kept on yawning.... but!!! it got better today^^ I got to shelve books all day... Yippie!....I guesss.... But man, i though i could just daze off while putting the books away but u have to concentrate on what you are doing or else u'll put the stuff in the wrong places! So, i am tenative most of the time!!!... sorta afraid i'll catch something off of the books... u dont know where those things have gone!....that scares me!

LOL, the spanish book section is always the messiest XD LOL I knew my race would be the most chaotic when it comes to literature! LOL But oh well... There stuff gets to be roughly alphabetized.

Let us see what new adventures are on the horizons! In... the library >< lol

I work from 2pm-5:30pm tomorrow. So, Bleh... I will be a little late to a friend's birthday party><

See yahz later

By the way, my step mom is a hedacious bitch that I despise to the max!!!! I hope she dieeeeeezzzzzz!!!! Blah...... she will get hers..... *shakes fist* If my little sister would ask her "could i go to my friends house" she would find the time to take her to her friend'ss at any moment. Because I'm not her child, she wont help me pretty much in any way....

Some of you know i dislike using the word "hate" well... honest to god, i hate this woman to the very molecules of her existance!!!!!